I am a perfectionist and have always had an utter disdain for failure. This has kept me from trying a lot of things in my life. Having finally accepted that failure is a requirement for a fulfilling and diversified life experience, I have created this year long project in an attempt to become comfortable with the idea of failing. This blog chronicles my journey with failure.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Day 253: A Missed Debate
Today I was planning on going to a college libertarian meeting at school tonight.
Result: A petsitting/housesitting client of mine called me as I was heading towards the meeting. Long story short, I skipped the meeting so that I could go and take care of the kitty.
I didn't mind it; I like housesitting for them. The cat is super duper sweet, and they have a ton of books that I can choose from and read :-) I got to finish a book I had started there the day before, so I was happy. It all worked out :-)
Monday, September 12, 2011
Day 252: A Vegan Potluck Lunch
(My good friend Carl; he accompanied me at the lunch)
Today was a vegan potluck lunch date. I've been a member of the lunch group for probably a year or so. It's always a lot of fun, and the food is always amazing!
So what could the problem be? I. Don't. Cook. EVER. And I CERTAINLY don't cook strictly vegan foods (boring and bland foods don't count). And buying yummy vegan food in a grocery store that doesn't require any cooking or preparation--that is challenging. I always struggle with what to bring to these things.
I decided to bring a simple fruit salad. Already chopped, sliced, sorted, all ready to buy and serve. But what if no one eats it? What if other people bring fruit? What if people are like, "How lame-o?"
End result: People ate it. And, once again, my fears were unsupported. I knew I was being ridiculous, but . . . you never can know 100%, can you?
Day 251: When No Plans Turn Into Good Plans
Saturdays. How often do I NOT make plans on a Saturday? Pretty much never. But today, I decided that I just wanted to hang out where I was housesitting for the night. I wanted to get some reading done and do whatever else I felt like doing. By myself.
Result: So I'm on facebook, and my friend Connie comments on a comment I had posted on one of her photos. She lives in Colorado, and she had come to Atlanta to come visit friends for her birthday. She had posted a picture she took at a national park near where I live. So I posted a comment saying that I live only 15 minutes from that park. Fast forward to 10pm--she comments on the photo and says that she and her friends were headed to a nearby diner if I wanted to join them.
Normally I'd be like, "No, they probably don't want me to go, I don't know her that well, what if we miss each other," etc etc etc. But you know what? I just shut those thoughts up as soon as they came up, and I went and drove to the diner. I ended up finding her and her friends, and I sat with them.
End result: It was a lot of fun! I'm really glad I went :-) I hadn't seen her in well over 5 years, so it was nice to hang out with a John Denver friend :-)
Day 250: A Missed Meetup
So. Today I had planned on attending a board game meetup near where I live.
Result: I ended up not going. I was hanging out in The Commons (my school's dining hall) and ran into a friend there. Long story short, he convinced me not to go to the meetup. Why? Because it was going to be at some random dude's house. I'm not one to be paranoid about someone doing something bad to me, but . . . why take your chances when you don't have to? So I went to my friend Lani's and hung out with her instead :-) I think it was a good choice.
Day 249: SCI Movie Night
Today, I ran a movie night for my school's student secular/skeptic group. I had all kinds of worries: What if the classroom doesn't have DVD player? What if the classroom is locked? What if I can't get the sound to work? What if no one shows up? I can go on and on with more worries--those are related to the food I had to bring (pizza and soda).
Result: The classroom was open. I had to call my group's advisor to get the sound to work. The food thing worked out fine. Not a whole lot of people showed up. The DVD's were kind of boring (we watched the first 3 episodes of Carl Sagan's "Cosmos" series). But all in all, it was a success in the sense that it all worked out in the end.
I don't know what events to create, or when to schedule them, that will get a large turnout. And that is frustrating. But at least I'm doing events for the group, and maybe in time, with effort put into it, attendance will improve on its own.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Day 248: A Colcoscopy
This post is about women body parts stuff. If you don't want to read it, then by all means, skip this entry. But basically, that thing in this picture--yeah, it doesn't go in your ear . . . .
I had to have a colcoscopy done today after receiving an abnormal pap smear result at the end of July. I had no freakin' idea what to expect. None.
Long story short, I didn't cry. I was really proud of myself! I didn't cry out of pain (although it certainly wasn't pleasant). And I had a male examiner, and usually when a male doctor examines me, I start crying. (Seriously.) So therefore, I make sure never to sign up with a male doctor for female stuff. But in this case, I didn't really have a choice because there's only a doctor at this location once a month.
So anyways, I didn't really fail today. In fact, I think I succeeded rather well. Yay for not crying!
Day 247: A Missed Meeting
(I think this picture is hilarious. Group therapy only looks like this in the movies. I've never seen a "happy" therapy group.)
Today I was supposed to go to a group therapy meeting at 3pm at school. But I was still experiencing the lovely Con crud, and there was no way that I was going to leave the house for anything. So I called the counseling services office and said I couldn't come because I was sick.
And it was no biggie. I was sad that I wasn't able to go (odd that I actually enjoy group therapy now), but I knew that it was best that I stay home. Plus I'm sure that no one else there wanted to catch my cold. So yay.
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