I am a perfectionist and have always had an utter disdain for failure. This has kept me from trying a lot of things in my life. Having finally accepted that failure is a requirement for a fulfilling and diversified life experience, I have created this year long project in an attempt to become comfortable with the idea of failing. This blog chronicles my journey with failure.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Day 31: My First Try as a Book Club Facilitator
I am a huge fan of book clubs. I love to read. I love to be around other people that love to read. And I love to read books that I never would have read otherwise.
I have attended dozens of book club meetings. However, I have never organized or led my own book club.
I am an officer for my school's skeptics/freethinkers group. I decided that this would be a good group for me to lead a book club with. I like being around other freethinkers and atheists, most of whom enjoy reading. So I organized a book club meeting through facebook. Today was the day of our first meeting.
Result: I think it went well. We met in a common gathering space in one of the buildings. I thought this was a good idea at the time, but I soon realized that I should try to secure a classroom for us to use. However, we did possibly gain a new member who overheard us discussing religion and atheism. I read Chapter 1 beforehand and had several discussion points to use from the chapter. Seven other people showed up, which is a pretty good number for a book club meeting. We had enough to talk about for the hour that I had allotted for the book club meeting.
Overall, I think it was a good meeting :-) And I am proud of myself for taking the leadership role with this! :-)
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Day 30: A Missed Book Club Meeting
Today, I had planned on going to a book club meeting for the book in the above picture. I've really enjoyed the book, but I still have 100 pages to read (this book is LONG). So, I skipped the book club meeting.
Result: I could have gone to the meeting, but after an eventful and busy week, I really just wanted to stay home and relax all day. I very easily could have beat myself up for not going to the meeting (and I came close to doing so several times), but I just kept reminding myself that I would be much better off mood-wise if I let myself just stay home, relax, and catch up on some school stuff.
All in all, failing to go to the meeting was a good call :-)
Day 29: A Spinach Quesadilla
Today, I allowed my boyfriend to choose our location to have lunch. I'm a vegetarian, so usually I choose the place. But I was feeling adventurous (yes, eating at an unknown location is a risk for me), so I let him choose.
He chose a Mexican restaurant. I was apprehensive. But, like I said, I was feeling adventurous, so I chose a food that I am very picky about.
The quesadilla.
What if there's too much cheese? What if the spinach isn't good? What if there's too many peppers and onions? Obviously, a quesadilla is a difficult food to get right in my eyes. So I usually avoid it.
Result: My adventurous-ness paid off. It was the best quesadilla I've ever had. I couldn't freakin' believe it!
Folks, sometimes it pays off to be adventurous.
Day 28: Burlesque
Today I went to a Burlesque show with my boyfriend and some friends. It was at a place in Atlanta called The Shelter. I had never been to the venue. What if it's a dump? What if there's hardly anyone there? Or too many people there?
I had never been to a Burlesque show. What if it's not really a Burlesque show? What if I don't have fun?
Obviously, I worry a lot. And usually I let my worries make my decisions. But that's why I started this project--because I'm tired of letting my worries and fears always win. If I listened to my worries all of the time, I probably wouldn't leave my house. (Seriously.)
Result:
I went to the Burlesque show. And I had fun! It was a cool venue with a very diverse crowd. I really liked the costumes, and it was cool to see dancers with such confidence.
And now I know what pasties are!
Day 27: Drag me to Hell? Hell, no!
Today, I decided to watch this movie, Drag Me to Hell, with my boyfriend. He said that he enjoyed it, and that I would probably like it.
Result: I failed miserably at watching this movie. I lasted maybe 35 minutes watching this movie. Anyone that knows me knows that I HATE gorey movies. I hate anything with blood, surgery, guts, anything like that.
This movie by far was the grossest, nastiest movie I've ever seen. I don't know WHAT he was thinking by thinking that I would like it!
And yet, strangely enough, a big part of me wants to watch it again. On my own. Because if I can get through this movie, I can get through ANY movie.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Day 26: Sleep Anyone?
Today, I had planned on getting a lot of things done. Catch up on the NY Times, read a book for a book club, make some craft cards for today's project.
I got none of these things done. Why? Because I took a nap at 2pm. I thought it would just be a 2 hour nap.
5.5 hours later, I wake up. Whoops!!!
Without intending to, I failed at taking a short nap and at having a fairly productive day. I did get my readings done for my science class, though.
Result: At first I was pissed that I took such a long nap. But then later, when I realized I could use my nap for today's fail project, I felt much relieved. So yay for napping!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Day 25: How to Succeed and Fail at the Same Time
In cognitive psychology, my professor gives pop quizzes. A classmate of mine told me that he tends to quiz on material that we will be learning the day of the quiz. So, in preparation of today's possible pop quiz, I studied chapter 3 and read the article listed for today's date on the syllabus.
We did have a quiz today. However, the quiz was on chapter 1, which I had not read, and on an article by Noam Chomsky, which I hadn't read.
That's how I failed. I read the wrong material. I also failed in the sense that I was worried all freakin' day about this pop quiz.
So how did I succeed? I got a 100 on the quiz! I didn't even read the material, and I was able to figure out the right answers to the questions.
So that is how I failed and succeeded at the same time :-)
We did have a quiz today. However, the quiz was on chapter 1, which I had not read, and on an article by Noam Chomsky, which I hadn't read.
That's how I failed. I read the wrong material. I also failed in the sense that I was worried all freakin' day about this pop quiz.
So how did I succeed? I got a 100 on the quiz! I didn't even read the material, and I was able to figure out the right answers to the questions.
So that is how I failed and succeeded at the same time :-)
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