I am a perfectionist and have always had an utter disdain for failure. This has kept me from trying a lot of things in my life. Having finally accepted that failure is a requirement for a fulfilling and diversified life experience, I have created this year long project in an attempt to become comfortable with the idea of failing. This blog chronicles my journey with failure.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Day 302: Book Fail.
Generally, I like to read one book at a time. I don't like to read a bunch of books at the same time. I don't know why.
However, I am currently reading 4 different books right now. And that's after I finished two books yesterday. One book is taking forever to read, another isn't as interesting to me now as it was before, and two others are e-books. Tomorrow I will be starting a different book.
I really want to finish all of these books, but when they aren't 4 or 5 star material, it's hard for me not to move onto another book that has the potential to be worthy of 4 or 5 stars. As long as I finish them all by December 31, I will be good.
Day 301: Mentoring Day 1
Now that I got matched with a girl I would be mentoring, today was the day that I was to meet her.
Result: We were supposed to have dinner together, but it turned out that the kids were having a Halloween social event. (Therapist fail!) But I did get to meet her for about 5 minutes. She's 17 and has a very mellow temperament.
Mentor partnering up fail averted.
I think we're going to get along just fine.
Day 300: Airport Fail. Almost.
Today was an "almost" fail. Pretty damn close fail. I had to drop my boyfriend off at the airport.
Result: Traffic was horrendous due to lane closures. We got there with MAYBE 30 minutes to spare. Talk about nerve-wracking.
Then he got stuck in Atlanta because of an overbooked flight. So that was a total fail. But I live in Atlanta and was able to drive there and see him for another day/night. So it ended up being a total win.
Day 299: Costume Fail.
Classy.
Part of the New Orleans fun plan was to hang out around Bourbon Street to celebrate Halloween festivities. And what's Halloween without a costume?
Result: I had bought a costume. The thing broke pretty quickly. A total waste of money! But I improvised and basically just hairsprayed my hair green. It was the stupidest costume ever! But it was fun to wear a black dress and feel cute and see other people dressed up. It was a good day :-)
Day 298: New Orleans!
Vegan gumbo!!!
I went to New Orleans this weekend for CSI Con (Committee for Skeptical Inquiry). One of the things that I did today was walk around Bourbon St later in the evening with my (now) boyfriend and a friend.
Result: Holy crap it was insane. People everywhere, alcohol everywhere, drunk people, crowds, etc. If there's two things I don't like, it's drunk people and crowds. Put them together and I kind of freak out.
But I just held onto my boyfriend's hand and let him and my friend lead the way. Oh, and it was FREEZING out. But I got through the evening, and nothing bad happened to me :-)
Day 298: The Ghastly Dreadfuls.
My friend Brian invited me to go see a show at the Atlanta Center for Puppetry Arts called The Ghastly Dreadfuls. I had no idea what to expect. At all. What if I don't have fun? And I have to pack for a weekend trip. I won't get home until 11pm or so.
Result: It was a lot of fun! They're a band, and they mixed songs with puppetry. And I went to high school with the cello player!!! (She's not in the above picture, though.) She was really good. They were all really entertaining, and I'm totally glad that I went.
Day 297: Mentoring.
One of the things I decided to do for my Field Practicum class is mentor someone at the inpatient treatment facility I volunteer at. Today I had a meeting with one of the therapists so that we could figure out who would be a good match for me to mentor.
I really don't know what qualifications would make someone a good mentor. I would hate to be someone's mentor and not enjoy it or even make the kid worse. But I'm going to go ahead and take a chance and mentor someone who needs some support from an adult-like figure.
Day 296: Cooking.
To say that I hate cooking is an understatement. If there were a stronger word than hate, that would be me.
Sometimes I think that some day I should start to at least cook one thing. Pasta. Cooking a pot of pasta is like torture for me. Canned vegetables. I seriously have to force myself to heat up some canned beans and vegetables on the stove.
When I'm hungry, I want to eat and get it over with. My ideal meal is some granola bars and crackers and milk.
One good thing about dating (other than the fact that I coincidentally tend to date guys who like to cook) is that it motivates me to cook. It's fun to make something that you know someone will appreciate.
I may never be a gourmet cook or even ever use the oven (seriously), but I'm okay with the fact that I don't like to cook for myself. Cooking for a significant other is much more fun.
Sometimes I think that some day I should start to at least cook one thing. Pasta. Cooking a pot of pasta is like torture for me. Canned vegetables. I seriously have to force myself to heat up some canned beans and vegetables on the stove.
When I'm hungry, I want to eat and get it over with. My ideal meal is some granola bars and crackers and milk.
One good thing about dating (other than the fact that I coincidentally tend to date guys who like to cook) is that it motivates me to cook. It's fun to make something that you know someone will appreciate.
I may never be a gourmet cook or even ever use the oven (seriously), but I'm okay with the fact that I don't like to cook for myself. Cooking for a significant other is much more fun.
Day 295: FED.
As part of my Field Practicum class, one of the ways I am volunteering in the psychology field is by attending FED meetings. FED stands for Families of Eating Disorders. It's a support group for people who want support for dealing with family/friends/etc who have an eating disorder.
My therapist runs the meetings; I'm there as a person in recovery. I'm there to answer questions people may have. I'm able to speak from a healthy perspective about what their loved ones are going through.
I may not have the best eating habits (totally failing at eating healthy foods), but I can still offer guidance and advice to people. I don't have to be perfect in order to be of help to others.
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